Yesterday was a good day.
My daughter came
over, we had a fun, easy visit, and she brought me a beautiful plant.
Everything felt peaceful.
I was not expecting The Dream.
I found myself back at XYZ Law Firm, not working, just visiting. I felt like a returning hero when I walked in.
At first, it felt
comforting to see my old friends, but then I realized something was off. Something had changed.
I was being blamed
for something I hadn’t done—something I wouldn’t have even handled. I
explained, calmly and clearly, but it didn’t matter. The more I spoke, the less I
was heard.
My old boss was
there, but acted too busy to talk. I wanted just a moment—to be understood. It
never came.
I didn’t argue. I
didn’t insist. I kept my composure and trusted the truth would show itself eventually.
And then I left feeling heartbroken, no longer recognized for my good work, but leaving with dignity.
I woke up really feeling that hurt. Intellectually, it was interesting that I was feeling hurt physically, in my soul.
Why this Dream? The Dream didn’t match
the day I had. Was it just a case of life being calm so the mind had space to
revisit some old feeling?
I’ve had this dream in many variations and always wake up with hurt feelings. I placed a lot of value on my job and work reputation, and it took me a long time to let it go when I retired. Maybe I only think I let it go.
Do you have a recurring dream?
Dreams really are crazy things, aren't they? They can elicit so many strong emotions. I often wonder what they mean when and why I'm so sad, mad, happy etc., when I wake up!
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DeleteMy dreams make absolutely no sense most of the time, but once in a while I will dream something and it will actually happen. Scary stuff; hate it.
ReplyDeleteThat is precisely why I don't like recurrent Dreams, they tend to actually happen and it is scary stuff.
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ReplyDeleteI don't like recurring Dreams becoz I always feel they portend something. As for Retirement, the Letting Go of Careers can take a Minute, since it usually has consumed and been a part of Life for so long. I Retired twice from the Corporate Lives I had and Thankfully didn't define myself by them. I think a lot of Men tend to and become quite Lost after Retirement due to defining themselves by what they did for a Living. I don't miss either of my Corporate Lives or the Corporate Grind, the Politics and Posturing, the demands of each, I just miss the Money. *LOL* I had to take an early Retirement due to needing to become a full time unpaid Caregiver to my Spouse and finish raising Two Special Needs Grandchildren, and that was demanding enuf. I joked that I no longer had to GO to Work, I just woke up now and it was all around me. *Winks*
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